Thursday, November 30, 2006

bidders?

I'm vending my soul!!!!!!!!!!!!

Who wanna buy it??
It is a really fair auction!!

(Not only me,, we are all doin this!)

confuuuussssseeeed:((

What to say?
What to do?
I just walk around & around & around!!

I've been mystified by life!
I just can't grasp what the whole world's getting at..

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

u agree?

شاید باید خوشحال باشم
زندگی برگشته به روال طبیعی خودش
کابوس میبینم
میترسم
یه وحشت نا شناخته !حتی وقتی تو دانشگام احساس میکنم همه میخوان بهم حمله کنن
آره باید خوشحال باشم...از خواب شیرین به ظاهر ابدی بیدار شدم و بر گشتم به زندگی
آدما همونان که تو خوابم بودن اما حالایه جور دیگه میبینمشون،نمیدونم من یه جور دیگه میبینم یا اونا یه جور دیگه شدن
باید خوشحال باشم
:)

cold every where!

I don feel hot;
I don feel,i love ppl around me,
I feel so cold.
colder than a piece of ice!

I look around with no feeling inside my heart.
I continue Pretenging & pretending till sth melts the ice!

What if they just wanna break it?!!

Thursday, November 23, 2006

Sisi..

I've missed Sisi..

I read ma diary today, and felt lonley.(miss her very very much!)
sis,, My dearest miracle!
she's goin to have IELTS exam tom mornin, wish her luck.

she could calm the desprate scream in my heart...............................

written last night!

Oh sheri! baby,baby..
I know it's hard,but it's not imposible honey..
Please don cry
tear's of a tiny powerfull girl is sth I can never see!

I know it is hard, but you can do it.

honey, I promise there will be no pain, just have the poison, you can fly by then..
just have it right now..

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

I'm a monster

I'm not going to forgive you!
I have a hard stony heart, didn't you know this??
I'm not going to melt.
I'm not going to be kind.(any more?)

I'm The Devil himself!!!

you know what?
I'm sorry for you!
You've made the biggest mistake one can ever make!

How dare you act, as if I'm a fool?
& Who are you to tell me what's right and what's wrong?

oh sorry my dearest friend, sorry..
I could be the best, I can be the worst.

Didn't you know I've changed alot while you were pretending (& just pretending) you are a good friend of mine?(maybe the best?)

It's The End baby.
Now it's the exact time to stop!
yep baby, I'm not going to struggle for a dead body.

I'm the Devil, didn't you know this?

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

My God:( ?

من شهرزادی کوچک همینجا اعلام میکنم
به خدا خسته ام
میخوام برم
برم یه جای دووووووووووور
یه جا که هیچکس نباشه
حتی اوناییکه دوسشون دارم یا دوسم دارن
اونوقت شاید بتونم پرواز کنم
بالای بستمو بااز کنم
چی میشد آسمون منم آبی میشد
چی میشه اگه ستاره های منم چشمک بزنن
خدااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااا کجاییییییییییییییییییییییییییییییییییی
بیاااااا پیش من
خداااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااا
:((

God?

حالم خوب بودا نمیدونم یهو چم شد
خدایاااااااااااااااااااااااااااااا نجاتم بده

Saturday, November 18, 2006

would u plz??

Say it once, say it twice, or a million times..
Say you love me, Say you need me, till the end of time..
Say these tree little words,Ican't wait to hear..
Say that you love me,don't waste time

Say it once, say it twice, ot a million times..
With the kiss from your lips, even with a smile..
With the touch of your hand, with a warm embrace

Say that you love me in every way!!

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

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HERSIAM!

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

to be edame!

hanooz ye chan tike dige moonde
ama alan harchi migardam nemiyabam
bashe badan;)

11 minutes! 4

Ralf tasviri ba neveshteyi ghadimi be maria neshan dad, matne zaban almani bood va naghash anra satr be satr khando tarjome kard:
"man...ishtar..elahe...khoda...
faheshe hastam...
madaro hamsare elohiat hastam...
chizi hastam ke anra zendegi minamand...
harchand shoma name marg be an bedahid...
chizi hastam ke anra asl migooyand...
harchand shoma anra far' bedanid....
chizi hastam ke shoma be jostejooye an miravid...
chizi ke be an resideyid....
chizi hastam ke shoma ba dasthayetan anra az ham gosastid...
... va teke teke kardid...
tekehayam ra jam mikonid...!"

11 minutes! 3

az daftare khaterate Maria, pas az shabike be hotele piremard,hesabdare sherkat va masoole bime raft.

" in naghash az man che mikhahad? shayad nemidanad ma az sarzamin, farhang va jense motafavet hastim? shayad fekr mikonad man dar bareye bazi chizha bishtar az oon midanamo mikhahad chizi biamoozad?
chera be man faghat goft yek moshtari ast? kheili sade mitavanest begooyad delash barayam tang shode, ya an rooz asr oora shifte karde ast. dar an soorat man ham pasokh midadam ke herfeyi hastam. oo bayad mara be khoobi dark konad; chon man zan hastam,zarifo shekanande hastam va dar in makan farde digari hastam. [tozihate sheri: in makan yani meykhooneyi ke Maria toosh kar mikone, roospigari!!]
oo yek mard ast,yek honarmand. bayad befahmad ke bozorgtarin hadafe bashar, darke eshgh be soorate kamel ast... [tozihate sheri: chan jome inja neveshte nemishe chon mohem nis(sansor:D)] ma mikhahim kari konim ke mohemtarin ehsase donya,ya shayad yeki az mohemtarin ehsasate jahan bemirad[inja manzoor eshgh nistaaa] delam mikhast oo mara nejat dahad.oo ham niaz dasht man nejatash bedaham.. vali rahe digari barayam baghi nagozasht.."
[maria oon shab ba in naghashe naraft chon gofte bood moshtarie va nagofte bood chon masalan delesh tang shode ya... dar natije ba moshtariaye digash rafte boode!]

11 minutes! 2

ye projeye azim bood in 11 daghighe ke man mibinam asan forsat nemikonam anjamesh bedam!!
mikhastam kheili khoshgelo moratabo farsio:D ina biam inja benvisam ama nemishe dige!!
pas dar ghesmate ayande avalin tikeyi ke delam mikhado az in ketabe minvisam!!

11 minutes!


دوست دارم بنویسم.شاید چون کار دیگه ای ندارم انجام بدم.حتی گوش دادن به درس استاد
الآن سر کلاس فیزیک هستم و جدا چیزی برای گوش دادن وجود نداره
بعید میدونم حتی خودشم متوجه باشه چی داره میگه
کتاب 11 دقیقه دیروز صبح تموم شد و آثارش به شدت توی وجود منه. کتابی نیست که بتونم به هر کسی پیشنهاد بدم. بستگی کامل به ظرفیت آدم داره که چطوری بهش نگاه کنه. شاید بعضی جاها حتی ترجیح بدم بگم نخوندمش
تو ایران جدیدا ممنوع الچاپ شده.ممنوع شدنشم هیچ ربطی به مسائل سیاسی نداره
دوست دارم تیکه هایی از این کتابو اینجا بنویسم
فقط قبل از هر چیز باید بگم : ماریا شخصیت اول 11 دقیقه یک روسپیه!!!!! و من احساس میکنم خیلی دوسش دارم
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